Date: Sat, 1 May 1999 02:57:32 EDT From: Nekomis@aol.com Subject: FAMILY TIES FAMILY TIES by Pen Nomen * * * * * * This story involves consenting sexual relationships between two adult males. If this offends you, LEAVE!!. Why are you here?? * * * * * * It all started during the weekend of my niece's wedding. Jonathan had just completed general surgery residency and was working as an emergency room physician while he tried to decide whether to do a further, more specialized surgery residency. He was staying at my in-law's house for the wedding, and we were gathered at dinner table two days before the vows. My wife, Judith, is his mother's much younger sister, and he had been the ring-bearer at our wedding sixteen years before when he was twelve. Judith and I were married when we were twenty years old, and it had, for the most part, been a good marriage until a couple of years ago. The last couple of years had been pretty rough, and Judith and I just agreed for trial separation the week before. She would have our two children, Geoff, aged 14, and Tracey, aged 10. We were still friendly and, in fact, the best of friends, but something of the romance we'd once passionately shared had deserted us. Jonathan's mother, Allison, began to question his recent break-up with Sarah, with whom he'd been having what looked like an alter-bound relationship for the past two years. Before that he'd broken up with Audrey after an almost two-year fling. And before that, Alicia. "Are you ever going to get married?" his mother asked in exasperation. "Probably not," he said. This was met with some consternation around the table. "What do you mean," my father-in-law asked. All heads turned toward Jonathan awaiting his response. Jonathan blushed and looked uncomfortable. "I've been postponing this for a long time," he said. "But this is as good a time to tell all of you something about your son-grandson-nephew-cousin while you are all together. I've fought against this, but I've recently come to terms with it and hope you will, too. I'm gay. I've been fond of Sarah and before her, Audrey, and before her, Alicia. But that's as far as it was ever going to go. Fondness. I had sex with them all on a fairly regular basis. But without any passion or personal involvement, at least on my part. I've been seeing a therapist for two years, and I've come to realize that all my passion over all my life has been directed toward boys or, more realistically, men. I'm not going to be in denial any longer about it." The initial shock of the assembled family group didn't admit of any reaction until he'd finished. Then, however, everyone seemed to have something say. Fred, my father-in-law, sputtered and cursed and mumbled hexes against faggotry. Carla, Jonathan's mother, said, "I'm just glad your father's died before hearing this. How could you? We'll send you to another therapist....a psychiatrist. This has got to be just a phase you're going through." "No grandson of mine........" "What will our friends say?" Voices were upon top of voices in anger, denial, disgust, rejection, and the volume only got louder with each second. I looked at Jonathan, his blond good looks almost ready to crumple, his strong slender body erect in his chair as if almost ready to stand and flee. All of sudden I was overcome with a feeling of tenderness and protectiveness . "Wait a minute, dammit," I hollered, loudly enough to win momentary silence. Before they could start again, I said, "Listen to you! This is still Jonathan of whom we have all been so proud. He's still Jonathan. He's still the guy we've all played games with, eaten with, done things together, loved..... What's changed? How can you all be so vicious and inconsiderate of that Jonathan!!?? Nothing's changed about him that wasn't true yesterday. Did you just quit loving him and wanting the best for him two minutes ago?" Relatives began to lose their condemning attitudes as they considered and remembered.... Finally, Fred - give him credit - said, "You're right, Andrew. Thank you." Then turning to Jonathan, he said, "Jonathan, Andrew's right. You're still my grandson, and I love you, and I'm still proud of you. I don't understand how you've come to this decision, and I hope you'll come to your senses, but if you don't. You can trust me. I love you and I'll stand with you." Carla's belligerence faded more slowly, but, at last, even she cupped her hand over son's still youthfully smooth cheek and nodded and smiled at her father's words through trembling lips and slows tears brimming over her eyelids. Jonathan flashed a warmly grateful glance at me. There was other discussion but that was essentially it. A few days later, the bell to my apartment rang just as I was finishing my shower. I didn't react at first until I remembered that Judith didn't live here any more. Just a minute I called loudly enough to be heard, I hoped. Hastily slipping on sweat pants, the first thing handy, I hurried to the front door and opened it. There stood Jonathan. ......At this point, gentle reader, before proceeding further, perhaps a different perspective is warranted. Jonathan's Perspective The chain of events of the past few days had been both liberating and unsettling. Not too long ago, I'd have been sure that I would never "out" myself in the manner I had. I still didn't know how far abroad my now open sexual orientation would become known. Would it affect nonsexual relationships with my friends? With my employer? With patients? These questions had only begun to occur after the cat was out of the bag, so to speak. I was particularly fearful of how it might affect my relationship with Uncle Andy, no matter how staunchly and warmly he'd defended my bombshell announcement of the previous week. He had, of course played a larger role in all of this than he could possibly suspect. He'd been my idol from the day I'd met him. Good looking, athletic, sharply intelligent, warmly compassionate toward other people, intuitive, perceptive, witty, unaggressively candid and open. He was everything I wanted to be as a man. He was everything I wanted to have as a male companion. It went back to the day I'd first met him. I was eleven and he'd just become engaged to my Aunt Judith. Unlike all the other adults I'd been around, he didn't talk down to me. He treated me like an equal and didn't act like I was too young and ignorant to understand whatever the subject matter he might express. This image of him would always stick with me: he was staying for a week with my Gramps, and I was also staying there for a few days while my parents were in London. The first day he and I were at the swimming pool, I couldn't help but notice his truly beautiful body. He was in a yellow Speedo swimsuit cut high on his hips and clinging to his butt and pelvic area like a second skin. It was, of course, late in the summer, and he was quite tanned. I don't think there could have been an ounce of fat on him. Every move caused muscles to ripple and stand out in relief. Wide shouldered, deep chested and narrow waisted, his long legs were superbly proportioned. There was very little body hair that I could see....just a dusting on his legs and a little trail of dirty blond hair emerging from his Speedos and running up to his navel. It was hard for me not to take a noticeably long stare at his barely covered genitals. There was little to wonder about them, since his two oval shaped testicles and his rather large penis could be seen pretty clearly beneath the spandex covering. After the swim, in the men's shower in the cabana at the far end of the pool away from the house, nothing was left to the imagination. I, with my little boy's weewee and scrawny physique, was embarrassed to be naked in the presence of such physical perfection....at least that's how I thought of his of physical appearance and I'm absolutely sure that was not just one person's opinion. What little had been concealed was now revealed in it's full glory. His penis must have been five or six inches long, even in its unaroused state. His pubes consisted of a rather sparse, vaguely triangular patch of dirty blond, slightly curling hair with that path of hair I'd seen emerging from his Speedos trailing from the middle of the top line of the triangle to his navel. I tried not to stare but I'm sure I did and I was fairly sure he'd noticed my staring but was too kind to give any indication. In later years, as I'd been growing up and maturing, I was with him on innumerable occasions of a similar sort, and, although I took no special note of it then, I now know from my physician's perspective that he maintained a remarkably youthful perfection as the years passed from his third to the beginning of his fourth decade. By that time, though, I knew that such perfection didn't just happen. He worked hard at it, and he taught me to do the same. We ran together, spotted each other in working with free weights. He taught be rudiments of martial arts which he'd studied from childhood and could claim a fair mastery over. He taught me dive and control my body in the air as it twisted and turned in the air. He'd been a gymnast from highschool through college and had almost made the Olympic team his third year in college. When I dropped my bombshell at Gramps' house before my cousin's wedding, there was one person who dominated my mind and had unknowingly brought me to that openness and forthrightness. He was the man I'd had a "crush" on for the last sixteen years. Not that he had in any way encouraged it or was even aware of it. But my imagination was full of those carefully stored memories of his charm and beauty. And now, of all things, he'd been my champion with my family when I'd been almost overwhelmed by the initial anger, outrage and hostility that greeted my "outing." I couldn't bear not to know the how and why of his staunch defense of me and who I was. Andrew's perspective I suppose some deep background on my own experience and attitudes is in order. I'd been an only child of aging parents, both of them having been in their forties when I was born. My father was fairly wealthy but not filthy rich. Mother had a trust fund set up for her by her own grandfather. It was to last for her lifetime and then pass to me. When she died I'd actually be pretty rich (not filthy but not too far from it). Both my parents were affectionate and loved me a great deal. They never seemed to be able to shake the feeling that they didn't deserve a child after they'd passed age of expecting one. Often I'd catch one or the other of them looking at me with pride and barely concealed delight. I guess I'd have been pretty insufferably spoiled if I hadn't had enough sense to keep things in a balanced perspective. I went to a private day school in the city where I lived (alright; no coyness: New York New York it's a wonderful town). I excelled in sports throughout my elementary and secondary years. It wasn't until well up into highschool years that I came to realize the real reason for my devotion to sports. It was the locker room. There was nothing that thrilled me more than being in a locker room with its smell of sweaty male bodies and in the shower with a bunch of studly looking guys naked and soaping themselves up in such a way as to be positively erotic. I was always very discreet where and how long my eyes landed. I became adept at seeing things well out of the corner of my eye. Sometimes the action in the locker room became so exciting that I'd start to feel my cock begin to engorge and swell. At those times, I'd simply turn around and face the locker or shower wall mentally reciting poetry to myself to nip tree in the bud, so to speak. I became a sort of connoisseur of cocks....sizes, shapes, colors. I was always attracted by white guy's cocks and had little interest in black guys except as a matter of fun. Some of the guys had cocks that looked permanently bruised they were so dark and blue. In highschool, I became very close friends with Danny Spencer and we roomed together when we finally went off to Harvard. But during the last two years we were almost inseparable, spending the night with each other at least once a week. Danny was a good looking young athlete, himself. Muscular and graceful. Like all teenagers we masturbated frequently, first by ourselves, then together and then, finally each of stroking the other's cock until orgasm. That's as far as it ever went with me: jerking Danny to climax. I liked holding his cock in my hand, though. Warm and large and smooth and vibrant. I used to fantasize about those times and relive the feeling I had as held Danny's cock in my hand and stroked him to climax. I could recreate the memory of the feel of my hand around the soft, warm skin around a hard flesh, the scent of his sweat, urine and semen in his pubes, the excitement of feeling his cock swell in my hand and spasm as he ejaculated. The semen on my hands, and, once, even the taste as I tasted some of it as he lay panting with his eyes closed after climaxing. Danny, on the other hand, rather quickly and naturally graduated to more intense sex...including oral sex. Before long he was sucking my cock fairly often. I never reciprocated though, holding on to my denial of any interest in such a thing. By the time I'd finished my undergraduate studies and MBA at college and had been married for several years. I seldom thought of it except during sex with Judith when she'd sometimes suck my cock (but never to ejaculation) or when I bathed and was naked and would sometimes handle my cock, remembering. Later, after I was well into my thirties, I began to recall and imagine on fairly frequent basis Danny's mouth engulfing my cock and it sliding into and out of his mouth as he bobbed up and down. I began to wonder what it would have been like to reciprocate and to realize that I had always wanted to but was afraid of what it might mean. And what it might have might meant was unacceptable to me. Back to the Present: Jonathan's visit and Andrew's response I was somewhat startled by Jonathan's unannounced appearance at the door to my apartment, but not surprised that he'd called upon me. I led him back to the great room looking out on to a neatly designed and tended small garden planted on the terrace of my high rise. After I'd gotten him and myself a beer, we sat together in comfortable silence.. After a couple of minutes of companionable silence, Jonathan got right to the purpose of his coming. "Uncle Andy, I just can't tell you how grateful I am to your intervention last week at gramps' house. How much I appreciate it. And I just want to thank you for it," he said warmly and forthrightly. "No need to thank me, Jon. And don't give me too much credit. Everyone there loves you and would have come to the same place with me...maybe a little later, but I don't even think that it would have been very much later at the same gathering." "Okay. Thanks," he said, flashing me a warm smile, "but, nevertheless, your words were the effective cause of the quick expression of love and reassurance from my family. That's important me, and I won't play down your role too much." "Well, in that case, Jon, you're welcome and I meant what I said.....Even if Judith and I are aren't together right now, you're still my family, and I love you and will stand by you with grampa Fred against anything or anyone that wants to attack you because of this." I noticed his beer glass was empty and that mine had only a couple of swallows left and got up and went back to the kitchen to get two refills. When I returned and we were both comfortably sipping on the new brews, Jonathan asked, "But one thing I don't quite understand, Uncle Andy, is why you? Why were you the first to come to my defense. I would have expected almost anyone else there to jump in before you." I twirled my glass, wondering whether to respond with something flippant and humorous, but then, looking again into the sincere and warm affection emanating from his blue eyes, I decided that now was no time to be cute or clever. I could only respond truthfully. "Well, Jon, what you owned up to was something that I could identify with. I've frankly had the same urges and inclination that you confessed to. I've never done anything about that, but I appreciated your courage in doing something I'd never had the gumption to express." Jonathan's expression had been stunned at Andrew's own private confession. "You mean you....," he trailed off in midsentence. "I mean I've had some of the same feelings...I've never done anything about it, though. Never had any kind of relationship, deep or carnal, with another guy . . . except maybe a little bit with this friend back in highschool, but that was just casual fooling around that never got very far, at least on my part . . .," I reflected further. But, smiling with I hoped was self-deprecating candor, I said, "I've got to admit, though, that I've always wondered what it was like to suck another man's penis. . . . Don't guess I'll ever know, though, this late in life." Jonathan took this private confession with a large amount of surprise, but as I finished, I noticed that he'd started smiling a little, as if at a private joke. "Do you really want to know, Uncle Andy?" he asked, "because if you do, I can remedy that right now, if you'd like." With that he stood up, and pushed his loafers off his otherwise bare feet by alternately stepping on the heel of the opposite shoe and pulling his foot out. Next he pulled his tee shirt over his head, revealing a slender, slightly six-pack waist and a more developed chest and shoulders than I would have suspected, given his lack of opportunity to exercise very much during his residency. "Wait," I yelped. I was truly frightened at this too sudden turn of events. In fact, at my self- protective yelp of protest, he immediately stopped and began to blush at what I'm sure he perceived as immediate rejection. "No, no, Jon," I reassured him. "I just need to see where we are in this." It was my turn to blush and I felt the heat rise to my face without at all diminishing the growing heated heaviness I felt in my loins. "I mean I didn't intend to `proposition' you with what I said. I don't want either of us to get pulled along into something neither of us would really want." Jonathan relaxed slightly and his color slowly became normal again. "No," he said. "I know better than that. But what you don't realize, Uncle Andy . . . can I just call you Andy? I feel kinda foolish under the circumstances to be calling you `Uncle' . . . what you don't realize is that I've had a `crush' on you (he blushed again at the adolescent term) practically my whole life." That brought me up short . . . especially since I'd also held what I'd thought of as shamefully pederastic fantasies about him for several years. "Well," I said, casting about in my mind to try to find other objections, "in that case . . ." My voice trailed off into somewhat troubled and hopeful silence. Jonathan waited a moment, looking at me seriously to make sure he did not overstep his bounds. Then he began to unbutton his blue jeans, top button first and then down his fly. My eyes were inevitable drawn to the movement of his hands. I couldn't help noticing a growing bulge beneath the softly faded denim; it held my attention. The waistband of his grey knit briefs was revealed with a barely visible swirl of pubic hair emerging a short ways above. When he'd completely unbuttoned, he pushed his jeans to his ankles and stepped out, picking them up and laying them neatly on the chair next to him which also held his tee shirt. I watched the play of his muscles in legs and back and shoulders as he stooped and twisted to step out of his jeans and fold and place them in the chair. Inevitably as had really always been the case when exposed to naked and near naked men, my eyes were drawn to his crotch. The pouch of his briefs were filled to capacity and stretched with the outlined shape of his rather large cock and testicles. Even as I looked his cock began to grow and straighten in the tightly stretched briefs. I looked at his face and saw him observing me as I observed his genitalia. Not taking his eyes from mine, he hooked his thumbs under the elastic waistband of his briefs and started to push them down. My eyes left his to watch this much more alluring sigh, and my breathing became faster and shallower as I watched and felt my own cock begin to swell in anticipation. First, his dark blond pubes were revealed and then the base of his cock, swollen thick but not hard. As he pushed his briefs down, more and more of his cock came into view. Long and straight and slightly venous. Surprisingly tanned but not at all discolored as some overly-handled cocks are. The circumcised head of his cock came into view, and then as the elastic waistband was drawn below the engorged glans his cock sprang upright and slightly slapped his belly before falling back down to a jutting semierect position. He quickly dropped his briefs the rest of the way to the floor, stepping out of them and kicking them to the chair. I looked at him in his naked glory, like some youthful Greek god. I wasn't sure what to do after having waited for this for twenty-five years, but Jonathan took charge. "Here," he said, sitting on the couch next to me and slightly spreading his thighs. "Get between my knees on the floor." I complied, still uncertain. This position put my face within a foot of his cock, and his knees gave a natural resting place for my arms which I immediately took advantage of. I looked Jonathan questioningly. "This ends my lesson," Jonathan said. "From here, it's your show. Do whatever you want." First, I was determined to get my eyeful of what his genitalia looked like. As I have mentioned his pubes was not heavy and thick but a dark blond, generally triangular nest of sparse, soft curls. His testicles hung large in a fairly distended, almost hairless sac with only a very few wrinkles in it in its distended state. Jonathan's cock was, I thought, a thing of beauty. I would judge maybe slightly more than seven inches long of moderate but proportionate thickness. It was not broad at the base and narrow at the top, making it vaguely pointed as so many penises were, but was fairly straight and of the same thickness from base to glans penis with fairly evident major veins . . . the large one on the underside that ran its length and the major "j" shaped one on the top side. The other veins were evident but not prominent. The head of his cock reminded me of a German WWII helmet as so did so the cock head of so many circumcised men. It was a tannish red color, not an angry purple as I had seen in pictures. Strangely his cock seemed to be tanned, but was not of a noticeable different color from his skin in other places. The lips of his urethra were a slightly brighter pink than the rest of his glans and were moist with a gathering drop of fluid. With trembling fingers I reached for his now fully erect penis and lightly brushed the back of my fingers along the length of his shaft. His cock jumped at my touch, and I looked to his face, questioning, only to find him looking at me with a mixture of attentive curiosity as to what I would do, a sincere smile of encouragement and something tender that almost look like it may be love. One of my recurring memories of those time with Danny had been his scent, so I bent my head a little further toward his cock and hairless testicles and inhaled. The same musky scent of soap, sweat, semen and urine trapped in his pubes. It worked like an aphrodisiac upon me. I felt my own cock swelling even more . . . almost to the point of full erection. I pulled at the crotch of my sweats to make room, and Danny, noticing, said, "One other thing, first, though, Uncle Andy . . . please take off your sweats." I looked up at him as he gazed steadily into my eyes. After a moment, I stood and pushed my sweats to my ankles and stepped out of them. Danny's eyes took in my nakedness and cock without embarrassment. I knelt between his legs again and brought my hand up to softly hold his cock. It pulsed slightly at my first touch. I pulled the skin down softly to fully expose his cock head and the area beneath the bottom edge. The drop of fluid was now clearly noticeable and full on his urethra. I leaned forward and softly lick it away, engaging my tongue in a swirling motion `round and `round his glans. He inhaled with a sharp "ssssst" followed by silence as I took the glans fully into my mouth and closed my lips on it. My mouth was now secreting saliva at a far above normal rate. I began to slide my mouth down the length of his cock, spittle spilling out of lips as it was secreted more rapidly than I could swallow. I could taste his pre-semen which was now steadily oozing from this cock: it had a sexy, salty-sweet, musky taste. When his cock hit the back of my throat, I started pulling back up his shaft, to take another swirl with my tongue around the head of his cock and then back down. I did this a few times until I became frustrated at not being able to get the last couple of inches of cock down my throat. I recalled reading about "deep throating" and that it was accomplished by engaging in a swallowing motion which had the effect of opening the throat and then closing it. The trick apparently was to get the cock head past the throat as it initially opened and then on down. I tried it and it worked. I gagged a little as his cock first entered my open throat, but I was determined to adjust to it and so I did. I felt my nose press into his softly curling pubes as the whose of cock disappeared between my lips. My tongue worked furiously against the large vein traversing the underside of his cock. I continued actively my tongue and lips without withdrawing a centimeter. Jonathan began to groan . . . "unghh. Ahhhhh. Gee Uncle Andy. No one's ever taken the whole thing before. Ahhhhhh. Yeaaahhhh. Ohhh, unghhh. That feels so good. How'd you know to use your tongue so well if you've never sucked a cock before?" He put both his hands on the side and back of my head, pulling me close to him, and began to rock slightly back and forth, withdrawing a little and then thrusting back with his cock, ramming it deeply into my throat. I felt I could feel his cock grow harder and larger. "I'm about to cum, Uncle Andy. Do you want it in your mouth or do you want off?" I began to suck harder and tried to nod my head in agreement as best I could under the circumstances. . . . And with that, I felt his cock spasm and jet after jet of hot viscous fluid pumped into my mouth. It had the same salty-sweet, musky flavor of his pre-cum and I swallowed greedily, loving every drop.....Gee, what I'd been missing all these years. Finally, his ejaculation subsided to a few droplets oozing from his urethra. I continued to suck and lick until I had it all and then cleaned his cock thoroughly with my mouth and tongue. I eased back and his cock disengaged my mouth with soft, wet "plop" of released suction.. I leaned back on my heels and felt something wet and sticky beneath my knees and looked down. I'd cum in my passion, without even having been aware. I reached for my sweats and mopped up the mess on the carpet before it penetrate, and then wiped the moisture from my genitals and from Jonathan's. I smiled up at him. "Did I do alright?" "Alright??!!" he laughed. "Much, much better than alright. It was the best anyone has ever sucked my cock and you've only just begun!" He slipped out of the chair onto the floor next to me. Slipping his arm about my shoulders he leaned into me and kissed me softly. I was, at first, startled because I had not expected it, but then I relaxed and opened my lips to receive his tongue. As his kiss continued and our tongues at first battled then softly caressed each other, I felt my cock start to harden and lengthen again and my breath come in faster, shallower pants. Jonathan's hand moved to my cock and caressed it into full erection. Then he pulled away and looked me in the eyes before stretching out on his belly and lowering his mouth to my cock. It was such a thoroughly good and complete cock-suck that tears came to my eyes and spilled over down my cheeks. Sucking firmly with his tongue and lips active along my shaft, his nose pressed against my pelvis. Within five minutes I was violently erupting in a jetting stream of cum as he hungrily swallowed. Afterwards, we lay on the floor in each other's arms dozing and resting. After a few minutes, Jonathan said, "I've wanted to do that with you since I was twelve. I've always loved you, and I'm so grateful that I've finally got the chance to say it without embarrassing you or running you away." I pressed my lips to his forehead and kissed it furiously, pulling him tightly against me, in response. He slipped his head down to my chest, his eyes aimed toward my now flaccid cock. He put his hand on it and squeezed softly. "Now, all I've got to do is lose the name `Uncle Andy.' I've really always to call you `Drew'. How's that? A new name for our new relationship."